I was wondering what it would be like to kiss you with those lips

I think I was 12 or 13 the first time someone told me they thought I had ‘blow job lips’ – I wasn’t even fully sure what a blow job was at the time but I understood it was sexual. That it wasn’t something I wanted to hear or know.

These days, as an adult, thankfully people aren’t so crude. But I definitely still get quite a few comments and compliments about my lips. I get complimented on my eyes and lips the more than any other physical attribute.

And I think what surprises me about that is that I’ve disliked my lips for so long. I don’t know if I feel like I should feel bad about that or not. But I have freckles on my face (and generally) and those freckles extend to being on my lips. I realise that I don’t have a wide community of people around me, but I don’t think I’ve ever met someone else with freckles on their lips before. And for a very long time I’ve disliked that which makes me different.

Why did I get such bad luck to have freckles on my lips?!

But what I’m slowly learning is that nobody else really notices my lip freckles like I do. People just generally appreciate the size of my lips, the plumper bottom lip but both being fairly full. And here they are fantasising about what it would be like to kiss these lips.

It feels like a sign to pack away my own self hatred and switch my thoughts to feelings to something more positive, something a bit more celebratory, something even …sexy.