As I mentioned in a previous post, I was planning on deleting my account at the sex website I use. It was wearing me down, I wasn’t getting success from it. But I had agreed to attend a type of party so I delayed deleting until after it.

And …I don’t know. I feel like maybe there’s still life and enjoyment and value to be had from that place. Because I went to this party and I had the absolute best time. It was so nice to meet old friends, new friends. I wanted to go because the host is one of the most delightful people I’ve ever come across and I wanted to meet her. She didn’t disappoint. She was beautiful and friendly, at one point she came up to me really close to my face and said why don’t we meet up sometime, just me and her and watch a film together and eat some snacks. And I feel like I fell in love with her a little bit in that moment.

I met another friend (who I’ve written about on this blog) and we talked about films and dating in a way that we used to do. There are some people who just get me on a certain level and this friend does that. It was nice to see him again. I met a couple who were incredibly sexy but also just really cute with each other that tried to get me to play a guessing game with them (I hate guessing games).

There was a woman who joined sort of late who just immediately popped up and shared the craziest story about using LinkedIn to get a date and I was absolutely fascinated. I ended up speaking to the host after the event and said I met the most intriguing woman but I don’t know how to contact her now! and luckily we’ve been put in touch.

I guess I hadn’t realised how many people I have met on this journey until this night. It was a large group but I knew so many of them. It felt familiar, it felt friendly. And as I was going home that night with memories of shared laughter and a little zing of flirtiness, I thought …maybe I shouldn’t be so quick to walk away from the connections I’ve made.

Am I focusing too much on sexual connection? And have I been overlooking the lovely friendships that were all around me that night? I think so. But there’s a lot to be said for making friends.