Sometimes I get messages from men and I think …did you message the right person?! and it was like that with him. I had looked at his profile and seen some of the things on it and I immediately thought ‘this one is not for me’

I told him that too in a roundabout way. Or at least I asked the question. Because everything that his profile said was very different to what he was saying in his message(s). And that’s a curious thing. I wasn’t sure what to make of him. But I’m glad I took that chance in the end.

We messaged for awhile. I would have definitely met up with him sooner but he was away for some time. When he got back we arranged to meet up for breakfast somewhere between where we both lived. And I was ridiculously excited about it. We’d done a video call before we met up and he just has the most beautiful smile. There’s something quite infectious about him.

We ended up meeting at this cute place. It turned out they didn’t serve food until some time later so we grabbed a drink and chatted. For hours. There was the suggestion that we’d go someplace else for food but I kept getting distracted by the conversation. It was so easy to talk to him. And he made me laugh and I felt good being there with him. It’s not often that I meet people who I feel so incredibly comfortable with right from the start.

So when he leaned in for a kiss in the car park when we were saying goodbye I welcomed it. And when he said ‘unless you want to come to mine?’ and when his face lit up in surprise when I said ‘okay’ I knew that he hadn’t expected me to say ‘yes’ I hadn’t expected to say ‘yes’ either. But I decided to live in the moment and lean into the feelings I was getting from him.

Have you ever had a moment where you thought ‘what is this person doing with me?’ I hadn’t until this day. The first time I saw him with his shirt off and he was all muscular arms and sexy six pack and I thought ‘fuck, I don’t want to have to think about my belly roll or the size of my thighs right now’ so I didn’t. It was a fleeting thought that went as quickly as it arrived.

And oh, how I feasted my eyes on this man. I’ve never really considered this level of gym fit as being something I was into but it worked for him. He really looks after himself and it showed. At some point I hope to see him again to lick those abs but I was a bit distracted by everything else. Particularly the way he liked to use his tongue. The way that he would stop after my orgasm and the way his breathing changed when I licked myself off his face.

I sort of knew what I was getting myself into from pictures beforehand. But in the moment I felt like I still wasn’t prepared for the sight of him, for the longest cock I’ve ever encountered in real life. Again, I had a moment of doubt because all my blow job skills were not honed on penises this size, I almost didn’t know what to do with it? So halfway through my ‘how far can I get?’ challenge with him in my mouth I stopped to make a joke. How and why am I like how I am?! but it seemed to break the ice somehow. And I managed to get back to that feeling of comfort and ease with him.

He’d warned me that I’d feel it afterwards, after having sex with him. And I did. There was a definite preference there for really deep fucking, a pounding almost. But it wasn’t mindless. I don’t think I’d have enjoyed it as much if it weren’t as connected as it was. It felt like he’d held himself back until I showed that I was in it with him, that I was meeting him in those moments. I felt breathless throughout. It was just a different feeling, a fullness that I hadn’t realised that I’d enjoy as much as I did. Just together with all the kissing and touching.

Afterwards, I lay on his bed with this feeling of bonelessness. Just basking in that relaxed feeling. I was definitely not regretting my impulsive choices. Especially when he came back after cleaning up and he gave me a hug.

Which led to a kiss.

Which led to a deeper kiss.

Which led to him saying ‘Look how hard I get for you?’

Which led to him saying ‘Do you have some time before you need to go?’

Round two was pretty great too.