I’ve avoided writing this list for awhile. I think because I knew as soon as I did put into words the things I want or that I’m looking for that it would make me realise that these are the things I’m not getting for my current connections.

When I finally did sit down to write this I ended up crying. Obviously aside from wanting to love someone else and be loved in return. It goes without saying that I want to be treated with respect, I want someone to value me and my time. I want someone to be in it with me. But I also think about other things.

• I want to fall asleep with someone and see their soft sleepiness as we wake up together 
• I want to wander around tesco and gather food and then go home and cook it together 
• I want to lean against someone as we watch a film or a true crime documentary or a medical drama or anything at all and talk about it 
• I want to meet someone’s friends, I want someone to meet my friends and watch the chaos of two friendship circles colliding
• I want to walk my dog with someone, just around the neighbourhood or somewhere prettier 
• I want to tell someone about my day, about work, about what I’ve seen on social media, about some weird new fact I’ve learned, I want to share my thoughts with another person
• I want to hold someone’s hand 
• I want to hug someone from behind as they’re washing dishes, I want someone to hug me from behind