I’m still really into my on/off person.

I was having a stressful time of it awhile back (and incidentally, I still am) and I couldn’t sleep. So this website that he and I both use has a chatroom feature. I’d never been into it before but I’ve been no stranger to chatrooms in the past. I thought it could be fun, if nothing else to have a chance to talk to people, vent possibly.

And so I was in this chatroom late at night. All of a sudden I get a notification on my phone:

You are on cam?

I was a bit startled and confused. I’d known that he’d used the cam chat rooms before but I hadn’t ever expected to see him at the same time I was on. Especially not at midnight on a Saturday.

And that one text started off a three hour conversation. And it was lovely. Early on he asked if I was okay and I ignored the question but he circled back round to it. But conversation carried on. And it was easy, friendly.

He said something I found incredibly funny and even though I usually do my best to not talk or make much noise while I was using the cams I did let out a little laugh, and he heard it and mentioned it.

And making me laugh? It’s such a turn-on for me. Especially by people like him where we’ve already established an emotional connection, where I already know there’s something there between us.

And I like that he can easily make me laugh. I like that he was able to see me at midnight on a Saturday. That he could hear me laughing at something he’s said. That it felt really natural to message for three hours in the middle of the night.

When he said he was going to get some sleep I told him when I first started talking to him that it all felt really nice and I ended up thinking wouldn’t it be great if we could go for a coffee somewhere together soon, maybe even later that day? I told him that I was going to ask him if we wanted to get a coffee sometime but then we chatted for three hours. But he still responded:

We should get a coffee in soon

And that made me smile too.